How to be alone..

Loneliness is a subject that has recently weighed on my mind.

Usually I am the sort who finds themselves perfectly happy to be alone. But recently that feeling of contentment was interrupted by the reminder of what it feels like to be in love, or something close to it. I have been feeling like a failure to the human race due to my inability to maintain love or a totally normal relationship at that. And I guess ultimately this feeling is due to a loathing of aloneness, I just need to figure out how to love that feeling again.

This is a start, I suppose.

Words of wisdom from Kelly Cutrone

"If you're gonna go there you need to fucking take this bitch out.. because do you know where nice people end up? Welfare."

It's been crazy

Working on my bachelor's degree while working full time has proven to be a very intense task. In fact my last semester ended with an ulcer and much frustration. To put it bluntly my plate has runneth over and flooded my entire apartment, I don't know if I can continue to work full time during school anymore.

Since my last update I made skittles vodka and wanted to share some photos from the experience. It turned out really well and I think I will most certainly make it again.

A year since I left..

starlings

When I am at work I spend much of my day on digg.com (multitasking while troubleshooting), and I found this article that I thought was pretty cool. There is this Scottish border town to which thousands of starlings are flocking to.. Starlings are pretty amazing, a few days ago I read that Starlings flock successfully by tracking 7 other birds near them resulting in their successfully not ruining formation by knocking into everyone else. I wish I lived closer to Scotland so that I could experience this, it looks pretty amazing and beautiful, however I am a country and an ocean away where the only birds we see flock are Canadian Geese.

And an update since my last posts to which I was having a difficult time with angry customers clashing with my anxiety/bi-polar-ness.. I just had a lovely and very fulfilling call. I didn't fix the issue because it turned out to be a computer issue, however the customer told me that it was a lovely experience working with me and seemed very happy. I am so thankful for customers like this as they are a dime a dozen.

recent developements

I really don't like people.

http://www.nationalpost.com/opinion/story.html?id=283931&p=1

I'd write more of my thoughts however I am at work and feel that pro-choice blogging would be inappropriate inthis environment. Maybe when I am at home.